Graduation! WOOP-WOOP!

Two weeks ago I graduated from university. Now I've got only a few photos of the moments of that 5-year studies. It is unbelievable! I am sure I'm going to miss my uni-friends and teachers. I cannot get rid of the thought that I don't have to go anywhere on the 1st of September. I have no rigid plans or rules or duties to perform. Nothing. And that is sad at the same time. It feels like the whole era's ended... and now it's time we hopped on the last train to our happy adulthood.

When the official graduation ceremony was over, we went to a cafe that was close to the embankment. The cafe wasn't that nice to be honest. The interior design was fancy but the food and the music choice weren't. I guess, our groupmates and I would have enjoyed a more intimate atmosphere which other cafes provided. Anyway, after the dinner we went for a walk along the embankment till late in the evening. The fun part was when the storm started... It was raining heavily and we were running in search of a shelter that we finally found in a shop where Ann met her potential boyfriend who later 'stalked' her on social media.   

Then Ann and I took a taxi and went to Ann's place where we, tucked in bed, started to watch a film but fell asleep :) 

Maybe it wasn't the perfect day but it was fun and I truly enjoyed it. 

Here are some few bits of the day. 

 

Love, Christina M.

Neugier

Time passes so quickly and now it's come to the point when I am unemployed  and have no plans for the near future whatsoever. 

Of course, I knew that I was going to struggle what to do in life BUT right now what I really need (except for oxygen) is to have a good rest before jumping into 'the world of adulthood and taxes payment'. 

Next week I'm graduating from my uni but I still can't believe that I've made it that far! During my studies I often used to moan about the amount of homework we had vs limited time. Now I finally have time to do anything I want to and what is more, I have no shame lying in bed till 12 or playing Candy Crush all day long. 

For the past few days I have come across some situations in life in which my anger went from 0 till 100 (on the scale of anger). My neighbours are constantly getting on my nerves 'advising' me what to do in life saying that working at school isn't for me (how the hell you've figured it out? We barely even see each other!) or advising me to get married ASAP (wth!) because 'you shouldn't waste your time because in a few years it will be hard for you to find a lifepartner' (I am only 21 by the way) and all that jazz. 

All of this is funny to hear and I clearly understand where it stems from. But the only thing that I wanted to tell them (but didn't) is the following - This is my life and I did not ask for your advice so don't even bother telling me anything because I am just not gonna listen. I need to decide for myself what I want and when I want it. If I needed a piece of advice, I would turn to my friends or family members for it, not you. But thank you for your concern anyway. - And this would be a fair answer to their 'expatiaions' and there would definitely be no further questions.       

Except for these annoying situations, my life is going alright. I've passed all exams with flying colours and have successfully defended my thesis so now I absolutely deserve some rest (even if my rest looks like IELTS preparation or DaF Vorbereitung). 

I wish you all have nice holidays and live the way YOU want!     

Love, Christina M.  

When All Falls Down

There are some days when you feel like there is no way out, when everything you do is just useless and there is no one who can help you out. Lately I've been feeling anxious and frustrated even though I clearly understand that this self-distuction is not a good thing at all. I've lost everything: a house, a friend, faith in myself, self-control and confidence. I tried everything. Well, at least I thought so. Unfortunately, there is only one thing that helps me out all the time. It is self-distraction. There should be something that you enjoy doing or something that you have to do. Just try to occupy yourself with it from morning till evening. People say that time heels all the pain but it doesn't work if you're constantly thinking about your problems. Problems can devour you, they can eat your soul up. I know it's not some kind of a new method or a great discovery. It's just a quick reminder for myself and for anyone who feels a bit down to keep yourself busy.

Believe me, moaning and crying never help. If you can't influence the way of things, there's no need for you to be nervous about them. If you have the solution in mind, just make it real! Even though it is sometimes hard to do so or just seems impossible to do so. But it's not. These barriers are only in your head. Clue to a happy life is being relaxed and conscious of things going on. And by 'conscious' I mean 'realizing what you need and are to do, having a goal to achieve and trying to exceed your grasp'. I hope all of your problems are on the way to be vanished! ;)

Love, Christina M. 

A Fresh Start

I wanted to write something motivating, out of the blue extraordinary but I think today's post is not the case. As any other human being on this planet I tend to look forward to what this year holds for me. I'm going to make a list of goals that I'm setting to accomplish by the end of this year:

1. To be more confident and less dependent on other people's lives. I am always the one who compromises a lot. I think I should stick to my own preferences and be the one to make a decision in the end. 
2. To go out more. Either just to hangout with friends or to go somewhere(museums, parks, art galleries) on my own. The aim of that is to enjoy time, to live the moment I live in. 
3. To write more and finish the story I've been writing for three months already. If I had a chance, I'd really like to publish my stories, maybe they'll be of any interest to someone to whom reading seems to be generally appealing. 
4. To say 'yes' to more opportunities that come across my way. Usually, it takes time for me to ponder over the things my friends suggest me to do. I want to be more flexible and more like a 'yes-girl' other than 'no-I-can't-decide-in-such-short-time-limit-kind-of-person'. 
5. To work out a time schedule according to which I'll be dedicating my time to learning languages & it shouldn't be a rigid timetable but a regular one. 
6. To let myself be free of judgment. Every choice a person makes is right because it's his/her own one. It's a strange concept but if you think really deeply you'll understand that it's true. 
7. To stop thinking about the past and chances that I failed to take. No explanation needed. 
8. To make dreams come true, be my own wishing factory. Think. Create. Enjoy. 

Once I told a guy that I'd come even though there were thousands of miles ahead. And so I did. Distance makes no big deal. But the chances you take do.

Happy New Year!

Christina M.