December Recollections

Oh, December, why so inevitably fast?
Not much happened this month but still it was full of quality time spent with my friends and family. I went to see 'Interstellar' with a friend of mine and we both enjoyed it to all our hearts' content. I actually like the concept of the world's existence shared in the film, it might be true. Well, at least it made me think of it for good 2 weeks after seeing it. Anyway, the film is worth seeing especially if you, like me, torment your friends asking why? who? and what for? questions trying to figure out what is the main point of human being existance on this planet.
This month as all three previous ones I've been trying to prepare myself for IELTS. I took one sample test at home concerning Listening and Reading ( the sections that I can actually take on my own and correct the mistakes I made) and I got something around 7.0 for Listening and 7.5 for Reading. I don't know how much effort I should put into preparation to get at least 8.0 in all the sections. I was thinking of getting help from a tutor and maybe it's a good idea. Well, I'll soon see.
I don't remember mentioning that I'm writing a short story which is almost autobiographical and I can hardly imagine even putting it online or showing it to my closest friends. It deals with commiting feelings to the paper and letting everybody know what you really feel inside. It scares me a lot. Even a scarce thought of it. I'd once promised to myself that I'd never regret anything that happened in my life but I broke my promise the very day I couldn't properly express my feelings and was trying to subdue them when it was the first and the last time I was able to tell the truth. So, I missed it.
I don't want to end this blogpost on such a sad note. I'd rather tell you something different. Tomorrow my university friends and I are going to celebrate Christmas and pre-New Year and I am really looking forward to that as it's probably the last pre-New Year we're spending together. There's going to be lots of champagne, sushi, cakes, smiles and laughter.
Merry belated Christmas and Happy New Year, let your wishes be fulfilled by that effort you put into them coming true.

Love, Christina M.               

October Recollections

October's peacefully ended and now it's time to sum everything up. This month was all about teaching practice. I've finally managed to hand in all the documents and now I'm sitting and wanting for the results to come out. Speaking about teaching, I've got a new pupil, a girl of 9 years of age who is hyperactive and that's the main problem she's struggling with (apart from getting C-s and D-s in English).  Let's see how it goes I haven't yet formed my final opinion about her but I believe I'll be able to teach her stuff.
I've seriously tried eating healthy but it just didn't go well so I dropped this idea the time when I opened a new jar of Nutella... But the biggest achievement of this month for me is baking. I baked a  strawberry-blueberry cake for the first time in life! I actually made two of them and both were amazingly tasty. I should say that I'm quite critical towards things I eat so I wouldn't have bragged about this if it wasn't true.  
Uni has recently started so now I have less free time than during teaching practice. I need to start working on my thesis but I cannot  even read the books given till the end. It's unmanageable.
Nevertheless, this october was a very productive month, I practiced my skills in many fields of my personal and not interests and learned a lot of new information.
By the way, happy Halloween!

Love, Christina M. 

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Октябрь начался с практики в школе, где практически на второй день уже стала давать уроки. Всё это время я интенсивно занималась немецким, готовилась (и продолжаю) к сдаче IELTS и учила шведский (который, в принципе, мне не особо нужен, но он мне просто нравится). Где-то в конце октября Алёне пришла гениальная мысль заниматься французским по скайпу, чем, собственно, мы и занимались. Вся документация сдана на кафедру вовремя, и мне можно забыть на мгновенье про всю эту тупую, никому не нужную бумажную работу. Даже если всё неправильно оформлено, мне уже просто egal. 

Мы начали учиться с понедельника, но у меня создалось ощущение, что я как будто уже месяц проучилась. Так медленно идет время в универе! В этот раз лекции вроде подобраны неплохие, даже может будет и интересно. Больше всего меня порадовала лекция по "Обучению иностранным языкам в зарубежной школе", потому что преподаватель включала видео на немецком (конечно, не особо полезно для тех, кто его не знает), которое я даже могла понять. Вот это для меня было удивление. 

Не обошелся этот месяц и без очередных разочарований. Я на шаг приблизилась к полному непониманию противоположного пола. Я всегда думала, что, если ты не хочешь общаться с человеком и говоришь ему, что ты больше с ним никогда не увидишься, то это точно значит то, что значит. Но нет. В моей истории здесь всё наоборот. Я уже не хочу ничего общего с ним. Мне не нужно, чтобы человек ко мне испытывал какую-либо жалость  или общался со мной только потому, что так надо или так принято, или еще по какой-нибудь придуманной причине. Это уже граничит с женской логикой. На это только можно лишь отреагировать как "ой, всё."

Этот месяц, как и предыдущий, окутаны какой-то тоской и грустью. Я ностальгирую по Германии, посылаю открытки в разные страны, пересматриваю фотографии. Я бы с удовольствием вернулась обратно. Это было бы круто. Уже два предложения в сослагательном наклонении, пора закругляться, а то я опять начну мечтать или раскатывать губу, которую потом трудно будет закатать обратно.      

September Recollections

Not much to recollect but still. Although I had two practices in translation, this month was pretty relaxing in a way that I didn't have to go to uni every single day.
I started to read T.Dreiser "Sister Carrie" as a part of my thesis work and I'm getting pretty fascinated by each chapter.
My teaching practice has started today. This time I'll be teaching French to 2 grades. I am super anxious and eveything about it because I don't know French that well. The teacher is nice but I can see that weird strict face empression when students do something wrong. I always wonder 'what if I do something wrong?' But I'm trying not to concentrate on what other people think because it's useless. It takes your time, energy and hope. I'll do my best at overcoming my problems on my own. Maybe it's only an autumn depression thing but I'm drowning in my negative emotions which are quite overwhelming.
P.S. facebook makes me sick and it's better not to use it right now since I have lots of things to do.  
This post is literally about nothing haha.

Love Christina M.